Therapist last night — she’s mainly concerned with how I’m emotionally reacting to hormone therapy. Since I’ve been off-and-on some kind of drug therapy since I was 12 (ritalin, anti-depressants, etc.), I’m almost not sure what an unmedicated “me” would be like. I was off med’s continuously from last fall until I started hormones a few weeks ago, but it was also a period when I had finally come to grips with my sexuality and gender issues, and was pretty naturally “high” from those issues.
Frankly, I can’t remember a time when I’ve been continuously this….. pleasant. I run every morning now. I hardly cry at all. Jason and I are in a nice “thing” but if it disappeared off the face of the earth, I could handle it. Oh well…. Emotionally, I’m in pretty good shape, I think.
Anyway, I’m physically only BEGINNING to see/feel some effects of the hormones. My boobs are starting to get slighly sensitive — just in the past couple of days. The endocrinologist says given my body shape/size, my genetics (large boobs on Mom & Cath) and my starting hormonal situation, that’s where I’ll prolly see the first effects. I’m also told by some other girls who have gone this route that once that effect starts, I’ll see some dramatic shift. My prob is going to school — how do I cushon/comfort new boobage (particularly sensitive boobage!) and at the same time adhere to my principal’s request that my in-school transition not be too “over the top”? I guess we’ll have to have another meeting…. with me wearing a bra this time.
LOL….. also, I’m starting to shop for summer swimwear. If the boobage continues to grow, I guess boy-beach wear is out, right? ROFLMAO